Unlearning American Dreams

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Oh days to come,

will there be something intense but brief like war-time romances,
or something quiet, nearly mundane, comforting yet overlooked, like those of our parents,
perhaps something deep and lasting, like in fairy tales we no longer believe,
or just a momentary flicker, one more fitting for hearts too tired to hope for more like ours,
or nothing at all?

does man receive all that he longs for?
the answer is no.

plain and certain,
shattering but steady
something to hold on to through storms

because
to Him belongs this life and the Hereafter


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